Feelings follow behaviour

I’m afraid of feelings. I’m not going to lie. I hate talking about feelings. I hate feeling feelings and in fact, I tend to run away from feelings.

They just make you so vulnerable – especially when it comes to members of the opposite sex.

I learnt the hard way that running away or trying to avoid your feelings NEVER works out. Not so long ago I got myself into a bit of a situation and I behaved in a way which was completely out of character. I ignored what I was feeling. Not my smartest move. Behaving as if you have no feelings won’t make your feelings disappear. You’ll only end up having to deal with more complex and more painful feelings in the end.

Never ignore your feelings, let them all out. Take notice of your actions, they speak louder than your words. Take them as an early warning of the emotions to come.


Bittersweet Memories.

Today while procrastinating, I found myself going waaay back on my iTunes playlist and playing some tracks that took me straight back to high school. I then added fuel to the fire by looking at old photographs (as the appropriate soundtrack was playing in the background).

It was almost as if I jumped into a time machine and briefly relived my life. It was weird; I experienced a mix of emotions – warmth, happiness, sadness and surprisingly no regret.

I have been fortunate to cross paths with diverse and colourful people. I have laughed hard, cried hard and loved even harder. I thoroughly believe that life works like the weather, in seasons that come and go. Although as a whole it isn’t always perfect. Life is made up of a bunch of both perfect and imperfect memories which make it real. People can never take that away from you.

There are a lot of people that I miss, a lot that I am glad to be rid of and many that have stayed by my side. I am happy. The only thing constant in life is change and that’s often hard to accept. Change isn’t always easy. All we can do is keep rolling with the punches and enjoy the ride.

Do everything you want to do, laugh too hard, dance until you can’t anymore, over eat, misbehave and take too many pictures. Never forget that while life may change, memories last forever – cherish them.